He sounded so assured for her future well-being, as he said those words to her in a composed tone. It made him seem rather serious, like his usual talks with her whenever they talk about the issue. She stared back at him, wondering how it would be like when he is gone after this.
"No worries. You'll make it through."
What follows was that of a tiny smile on his face - rather, a smirk. "Okay, so it's not that easy. Cliched words like that can be so fucked up. But I've talked to you about this so many times already. It's been... almost, 12 years. Now, that's such a long time."
She had no word to say. He had only said the truth, anyway. It had always been about the same thing ever since the past 12 years in the world of non-existence. It was a crutch for her problems before, until it became a real problem that she was depending on it instead of truly helping herself. A crutch can only be temporary, it cannot stick around forever. If you do not try to walk on your own two feet, you will never fully heal.
The issue was never really stagnant. It had its own developments. But it was not good enough within the span of 12 years until the present moment that she is now, what you can call, a proper adult. The two of them had been talking about it all this time, trying to see where they can pick things up and amend them. She had gone through and passed by a long, winding road using fantasy as a crutch, and it can no longer go on that way.
"As a human, you are the only one who can be responsible for yourself. So, stop giving me further excuses, and really just move on already."
She knew it. Even she was beginning to get tired of herself.
I hereby leave you all the things I can give you to help you out - or otherwise known as 'advice' but I do not consider myself a good advice giver though. Still I think this should be useful for you. Ah, I can be so ironic but whatever.
It's about time. Don't ruin your life anymore. Remember though, when all people in the world fail you, you know you have tried your best (provided that you did) and He will always be with you and won't fail you. So don't worry about people. You have done enough worrying already. Stop trying to fix the world, you can't do everything for everyone.
Let us just try to live good, proper lives.
She could hear a song in her head, while he politely stood up and started to walk away to leave, permanently.
"Leaves are on the ground[excerpt from Alter Bridge - Watch Over You]
Fall has come
Blue skies turning grey
Like my love
I tried to carry you
And make you whole
But it was never enough
I must go."
He'll save you. You just need to have faith and literally try your best.
